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I should apologize
For my new compromise
A temporary disease

Another dumb mistake
To think that you would change
Now I'm admitting defeat

Well I knew what this would mean
But still I let myself get back into it
It's time to turn around

If your not careful
She'll rip your heart out
And shove it in your mouth

Now I took all the blame
Off my little brain
And said 'the devil made me'
Put the turpentine
In her carafe of wine
And I got a reprieve

You hold tight onto the razor blade
It cut you down from grace
Now the model of disgrace

You've rolled dice
Consumed to hide your age
You're old meat at the plate
Now avoided like the plague

A swan dive into reality
A cold bite
You feel inside
The path you left behind

Never dies
In my heart it's all been wasted time
So I'll never mind
In my heart it's all been wasted time

You won't find a pool of sympathy
Jump in as you please
And be rid of your disease

Your whole life
Burning at the stake
And old pretending fake
I'm enjoying your mistake

Headlines detach us from the world
Throwing all compassion overboard
Like big flies circling the corpse
It's getting more disgraceful than before

What will we ride
When this horse dies
Will eat the shit and jump in

With both feet in the fire
Rubbing ignorance into our eyes
We're blind, so blind
To all the world's injustice
We're so blind

In their sick minds
They justify it all
Emotionally straying from the course
For the big prize
A hundred million whores
Raping all humanity and more

Climbed these walls
For hours that feel like days
From highs I fall
To watching the pain drying
The walls that I walked through
And the truth bent
To get to you
'Cause I need you
Where do I belong
Won't get through all my bleak moods
Without you
My resolve
Is a tower that fails to break
Life's a bomb
That can blow you eight ways from Sunday
Blue surrounds me
Blue all around me
Only you can change the tides
Hoping you can decide our fate

Born so we could lay
In a burning bed of rusted nails
Now it's my cause to stay awake

Will human kind prevail
Over prophecies of godless rages
For a world that's gone astray

Save preaching better times
They're bitter lies
Hey I could always climb the gate

It's heaven I hold this time

The comet's on the way
On holy ground we'll walk with angels
I just hope it's not today

I find it hard to pray
With one foot in my mouth
And one in the grave
Well so much for staying sane

Dug up buried old beliefs
Thought dead
They're one year older

Forgiving flowers up your sleeve
Just wilt away forever

Wanted to warn you
Your God went and left you
The stars aren't aligned to
Ever give you time

To reload
The bullets you hold
You'll pay with your soul
Time to reload

The weight of power to defeat
Still resting on your shoulders
Now you grovel on your knees
The damage here ain't over

Like Jesus nailed to the cross
We're all hanging prey
To the demons that we face
'Til our dying day

Now how long can I suffer defeat
Like a dog that's been tied up and chained
In a world that needs someone to hate

Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
Sometimes I wish I were everything
That I thought I could be in my demented dreams
Sometimes I wish I wasn't born
Sometimes I wish I were everything
The perfect holy poster boy for vanity

How dignified we first fall into this maze
And it dulls the mind thinking of ways that I will sustain

They devour your piece of the dream
Like a cancer that's eating away
While the vultures fly in for the feast

Apologize for stupid old mistakes
Your only vice disappears without a trace

Your mystified
You can't relate
Your on your knees to follow the new faith

I'm starting my own religion
Demi Gods
They'll be none
After all demons fall we'll be done

Sink your teeth into the golden prey
You won't believe the souls we saved today

You won the prize
It's no debate
Your on your knees to follow the new faith

I'm the king of all pretenders
The end all be all of fakes
I prey on the mindless
And I like it

Your defenses all surrender
My senses all awake
I kill 'em with kindness
And they buy it

Now I'm not one to seek redemption
The truth will set you free
Is all a mild deception
And you better believe
That I'm lying
Lying
Lie to everyone everyday

The bitter pill of ages
You swallow everyday
If feels so timeless
Don't fight it

Now I give you inhibitions
Take your innocence away
Without even trying
'Cause I can

Lord give me the strength to fight the things I can change
And find me comfort in things that will be
Show me a road that I could take
That never leads

To an empty life along
Just take me to a place
Where I could lift myself on a pedestal
And don't let me fall

'Cause in my state of mind
In my state of mind
I'm worried what I might say or do
Steel bars they start to close around my feet
I'll never leave
I walked with a devil on my shoulder
Everyday
It left me the scars that I will wear
Over me

And the withered hands of time
Still reaching out for me
Try to rip me off my pedestal
And force me to crawl

When all my dreams are strangled
I don't want to live
Now this noose around my neck
Has found a comfortable fit

I didn't know I'd be worse off in the end
Then I ever thought I could be before
I can't do without what I thought I couldn't live with
I didn't realize it till you were gone

Now you can't find a reason
Not to throw it all away
I'm pleading all the words that
I thought I'd never say

Love Me
Now the tables finally turning
On me and my little world
Love Me
And the weight your tired of holding
Won't be heavy anymore
I can't let it go I prefer my heart pretending
I wanna believe time could change it all
But gone with the leaves like a ghost of all the seasons past
How could our endless fire feel so cold

I don't care why your leaving
The words mean all the same
You left me to lie bleeding
And turned your back away

Do you find in the desert
That all the sand looks the same
I drink the optic illusion
But the thirst never fades

We're not in the same shoes
With no one to blame
But the fools who surround me
I'll always have someone to crucify

Here out on the seas of dissension
I'm stalling the floods
This martyr for peace has surrendered
Drowning in blood

Behind the vale of delusion
Hides the road I should take
Damned to live contradiction
Thirty years tempting fate

So for now
You think you've found a way
To console yourself
Every hour of the day

But I believe this isn't true
Those burning lights of past regret
Will always blind you

Yesterday is never behind us
Everyday still looking to find us
Close your eyes
Repent your sins

And think you're fine with everything
My words rang true
You'll never have it all

Don't worry now
You were so profound to say
It will all work out
Only time can find a way

It's only life
I remind myself each day
If only I could remember what I'm doing
In a room
The walls are padded down with foam
Because it takes away the sound
And alters the voices that tell me to do

What I do
They're worried that I'll wanna kill
Without my pills
And they knew that I'd do
What I do

One more try
To step inside my brain
A constant fight
But I won't sleep till I can fool them
For hours they make me stare at blotches
I failed the grade
When I told them I was Jesus and I hear voices
That tell me to do what I do